I'm tired of rock climbing: It's another chance for people to participate in a hierarchical structure. I'm tired of these structures. The only reliable thing about them is that they are inherently unreliable. They are simply (and insultingly) reductionist in their interpretation and categorization of humans. Climbing caters to the same egotism that infects all potentially competitive activities (which is all activities), from sex to corporate management. Corporate hierarchy is internally condescending towards perceived 'inferior' employees, as is climbing. Note the attitude of elite boulderers towards anyone else. From a marketing standpoint, this is perfect. Climbing has therefore been christened as an economic enterprise. Note the cameras at popular bouldering areas. Note the bright-colored photo-friendly clothing and the sycophantic entourages of the performers.
I apologize. How mundane this has already become.
I notice the inherent discrepancies in many things, including my own most favorite activities. How immature it is to look beneath the surface: that is such a product of the idealism of the young, which must be tempered by the forge of reality. How counterproductive it is to question the benefits of the status quo order. Gag. Cliche as purgative.
I apologize again, for I am a true hypocrite: I lay claim to a vast number of transgressions against my own doctrine. How unique.
Cynicism, indifference: they are the solvent into which all of us dissociate. I too am guilty of providing those reagents in this ongoing reaction, the product of which is nihilism.
But climbing is about 'The Psyche'. It's about 'The Send'. It's about 'Rising Above' everything else and 'Accomplishing' something unique. And all these qualifiers, do they not serve to belittle any real knowledge gained through the experience? For every pair of climbing shoes sent as collateral for every (marketable) perceived high-level accomplishment, a mote of dust flies in the eye of the human experience.
Yawn. I bore even myself with such redundant observation. I'm sure that everyone involved is equipped with such a critical sense as to render these questions obsolete. All the swagger must be mere theatre for the rest of us to enjoy. And my own ego palls at the thought of these hypocritical ululations.